Super lazy day in bed with my two beauties <3

do you mind if i stay all day in bed just thinking about you?

I was in the deep end of her skin.

and that’s me being romantic.

I’m going to my flat tomorrow and going to stay about week and a half! :D

Just decided to make a personal post using this thing I found on my dash and a picture of me.

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Bébee
- Eye Color: Light Brown
- Hair Style/Color: Long, naturally dark brown.
- Height: 5’1 (Yes, I came from the land of the hobbits)
- Clothing style: Jeans and a shirt.
- Best physical feature: tricky one! I don’t know, I like my eyes..

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Spiders, people. 
- Your guilty pleasure: I spend so much time on things I shouldn’t: tv shows, youtube, etc.
- Ambitions for the future: Become a doctor. 

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: Shit, not again!. 
- What you think about most: A perfect life, another life.
- What you think about before bed: A perfect life, another life, Michael C. Hall and other people.
- You think your best quality is: Sleep haha.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single dates.
- To be loved or respected: Respected.
- Beauty or brains: Brains.
- Dogs or cats: Ouch, I love my dog but I like so much cats.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie:  Once in a while. Just when is necessary.
- Believe in yourself: I can’t say I do.
- Believe in love: Yes.
- Want someone: Yes.

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Yes.
- Done drugs: Yes.
- Changed who you were to fit in: Yes.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Black.
- Favorite animal: Dog. 
- Favorite movie: Tricky one, I love a lot of  movies.
- Favorite game: I’m going to sound like a 60 years old person but I really like Bingo hahaha.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday will be: Friday.
- How old will you be: 21, fuck.
- Does age matter: Yes, I’d prefer someone older or same age than me but someone younger will make me feel old.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Funny.
- Best eye color: I really don’t care about the color, I care about what the eyes show.
- Best hair color: Red, blonde, light brown and then black. 
- Best thing to do with a partner: Hang out and do stupid things together I think. 

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: my pets.
- I feel: numb.
- I hide: My feelings.
- I miss: My grandparents..
- I wish: to be successful in life.

Today We talked about the shitty people who used to laugh at me, bullied me and said horrible things to me and She thinks is all in my imagination, like I made up this things or I’m seeing things that were not there, and that’s the reason why I’m a loner and I don’t like people.
That’s bullshit! I believe that all this shitty people really fucked up my mind when they bullied me and that’s why I’m not a social person, I just can’t trust no one and I hate and hurt myself.

I haven’t created bad people in my head, they fucking exist and they hurt another people!

So proud!

I’m a fucking great sister! :D

I hope I don’t die before I can have sex with Michael C. Hall, but in that case I think I’m gonna be immortal or something..

Oh.. I’m talking no sense shit again. 

I don’t like to watch them online, I have to download and burn them on dvd. I have an organiser with 60 dvds! And a lot of seasons in my computer that I haven’t burn yet. I spend a lot of money on it but this is something I love to do! :D

I feel like a weirdo. 

I woke up a little late because I couldn’t sleep last night. I took a light breakfast and I think I’m gonna workout in the afternoon. Well this is my little update! xx

I know it going to take time, but I really feel like I want to get better and maybe it will help me to overcome my deppresion. I have lost 3 years of my life because of this and I’m really tired of just existing but not living. Also my psychologist says that is a good sign I’m making plans to the future. I know I won’t be a new person or make all my problems disappear, but I still have a little bit of hope that one day I will wake up in the morning not feeling upset because I didn’t died in my sleep.

Well.. Tomorrow will be another day and I’ll try to enjoy it! I still have hope.

Maybe there is a tomorrow to believe in.   

Why is so hard to find someone like this?